I will be Bella

My officemates decided to have our christmas party on the 23rd. And our theme is "Twilight",we'll be donning outfits from the casts. Gee, i didn't even have the chance to choose, which character I'd be, Alice and Rosalie's are taken, so they left me no choice but to be Bella.I love her definitely, it's just that she's 17 and I'm 26 hehe. I think that there's a big diffence when it comes to outfits. I'm not sure if I can still wear chucks, I think I'm too old for that. But anyways, now I have an enough reason to buy boots, I've been wanting to have a pair. So I think I'll just wear a dress, (blue form the prom scene with cast hahaha)boots and a coat. We are planning to have our photoshoot.Crazy peeps talaga^^

Crazy love^^

hmm..it is really crazy I think. It makes you happy, it makes you cry, it makes you mad, it makes your feel beautiful and cofident, it makes you dream about good things, it hurts you, it makes you stumble, etc. This how I feel right now, I'm not sure if it's love, but this time time I don't like the feeling, because it's not right.No, I think it's not love, no, no,no,...^^

Sosyal!!!

Uh huh, okay?hahaha..I just wanted to share this photo..haha..authentic kaya yan?

Danke PAPA^^

I didn't go to work last Friday, just to see my dad. I miss him a lot and James was bugging me about him. So went there sa kasagsagan ng ulan haha..Unexpected plan happened, papa decided to finally let James meet his wife(the story behind it?hay pang mmk). I was really hesitant, coz I think I'm not ready to face her yet, but Papa was begging he said it's time. Then finally, I gave in, it was the most awkward situation I've ever been into. I really want to thank God, coz I think it went well, I mean no Violent reactions, and no rude words were used.

It was the first time I saw my papa as real Father, I always tease him as "under the saya", but that day, I felt that he really love and care for us. I love you papa so much, thank you for trying your best to be a good father to us, inspite the situation.

Hab dich lieb PAPA...we'll be together soon. Lord willing!!

Now, I think why God still wants me to stay here, i think he is preparing me for something bigger and he wants everything to be settled first.Thank you Lord..

Don't know what to say

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you meant everything Quickly
I'm learning to love againAll I know is I'm gon' be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I'll be living
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is
I'll be fine without youYes I will

Why I love " The Hills"?

Some of my friends asked me this question, I wasn't able to answer hahaha.Well, as much as I love Gossip girl and Prison Break. I've heard negative feedbacks about this series..But the reason I love this series is because It's realistic, girlfriend fights, break ups, dramas and dream jobs. I never considered myself as Fashionista, or any fashion enthusiast. But this series keeps me inspired when it comes in pursuing my dreams or my passion. Whitney is my favorite among the four girls, she's the wackiest and she has the coolest job, she's less of a Drama Queen, I also like LC, she's just to melodramatic sometimes. For me it's really inspiring, Lc and Lo just got their new house, it's just so cool. I'm not a bar-shop-bar type of girl, I don't even drink and don't even dance in any clubs with Martini on my hand. But I'm not close-minded to those things. And ofcourse, who can't admire their outfits? I love LC's wardrobe, and whitney's too. Well, well, what can I say? I love The Hills. I just finished Season 4 ^^

A good way to start your day ^^

Dear God:
The lady reading this

is beautiful, classy and

strong, and I love her.

Help her live her life to the fullest.

Please promote her and cause her to excel above her expectations.

Help her shine in the darkest places where it is impossible to love.

Protect her at all times, lift her up when she needs you the most,

and

let her know when she walks with you,

She will always be safe.

^^

Lately, I'm thinking why can't I act like 26, or even talk like one. But, seriously, I'm so trying hard to change that, not to laugh so loud, not to talk that much, be mahinhin..but it's really hard for me, it's hard to do somthing, that your not really used to. And I don't need to please people naman, even if they always tell me na I'm so immature, it's not my problem anymore. Pero may disadvantage din pala, kase yung respeto nung mga nakakabata sa ken, parang hindi ganun kalaki. Kapag ayaw ka nilang pansinin o kausapin, gagawen nila, sasabhin nila ang gusto nila sabhin, without considering my feelings..before it bothers me a lot, but I think I did my part na like, magsosorry ako, kahit walan akong idea kung anung ginwa ko..Before it caused me so much pain, masakit kase yun eh, kapag alam mo wala ka naman ginwa tapos they'll treat you differently. But I really learned a lot from those experiences, I learned not to trust that much, not to depend so much, ( God lng)and to expect nothing, it doesn't mean na if you do good things to others, they'll do the same with you. But I think I need to act my age, not for them but for myself.Pero young at heart pa rin hahaha..

I can't wait..

Christmas is so fast approaching,and I want it to be the most memorable christmas haha, while I'm here in Pinas, I'm still hoping and praying that I'll be able to leave this year. I really want to relax and go somewhere, and whereelse? Sa Beach, I don't know i really have this thing for the beach, it makes me calm and happy, our family loves the beach as well. Since my Lola, lived near the sea when she was young. I love to swim and explore the sea.

Since my officemates are the most "gala" peeps I know haha. We are planning to go to La Luz on Dec. 27, ( I really want to be positive about it, kaya may date na) I really can't wait, I can imagine myself now seeing the beauty of it. Actually I'm planning to bring some books, yung feeling na while your reading, you can feel the wind, i remember one time my ex told me that I'm "taong dagat" hahaha.So well then, sana matuloy haha!!

Snickers

I'm not really into chocolates, but for me to feel happy when i'm sad, I always buy Snickers or anything na iniiwasan kong kainin.
Ganun tlaga eh, I needed to do the right thing, kahit msya for the meantime peron in the end, nagiisa pa rin talaga ako eh.hindi yun reality eh, kaya kelangn namagising ka lge sa katotohanan. Kahit masakit at mahirap, dahil nasanay na akong anajn sya lage eh, kapag nsasaktan ako sya yung sumbungan ko..pero mawawala rin naman, kaya hangga't kaya pang wag mafall, iwasan na..si God ang bahala sa lahat..=(

Palaisipan^^

Pwede ka bang magmahal ng dalwang tao ng sabay? I always find this scenario sa movies crappy, kase parang impossible.Pero you'll never kknow kapaga ikaw na pala ang nasa sitwasyon na yun..hahah..Cheesy huh?i just realized how immature ang isang taong ganito, I believe if you love someone, you are committed to love that person, whole heartedly.Walang kahati at walang conditions.So there's no such thing as"sana dalwa ang puso ko" hahah..
Pero cguro pwede" Bakit ngayon ka lng?

hahah..ang baduy!!pero kahit papano totoo naman eh.Godbless!!

PW's (my own term)

I love how this plain white shirt can be so stylish, I never knew that folded sleeves can make a difference in one's outfit. I used to fold my sleeves before, not to put style, but i just feel comfortable with short sleeves, specially when I was in varsity. And now, I took all my uncle's Plain White's, but I'm still planning to buy a new one with V-neck, coz i find it more stylish..

Style-lovin' ^^

So Gladiator-

I found this style so weird at first, but now if find it so cute and unique. I was kinda hesitant coz I have big thighs, so I was thinking that it might not fit well. But choosing the right style and length will do nicely. My sister and I are so searching for these styles tlaga..para kameng "Gladiator-Hunters" hahaha..

An inherited Bag addiction

I'm really into bags since gradeschool, I made sure I have a new one when June comes.
I remember back in college, my friends would tease of being "bag-addict", coz I made sure to use different bags everyday. My Grandma, aunts, and mom are all the same. My mom doesn't go out that much, she still changes her bag from time t time..crazy^^haha. My outfit won't be complete without a nice bag, I'll choose bag over make- ups. I think I had like more than 30 bags already hehe, mostly from thrift shops. But now I'm planning on saving for an authentic one, I mean, a bag that I can still give my daughter, I'm sure that she'll be really proud of me. I think quality is very important nowadays. So here are some of the bags, that I would die to save for. Enjoy!!

Ganun pala...

Ganun pala, if you'll see you ex with a new girl...sakit tagos hehe..
At first I was in denial na okay lng pero hindi pala..Pero, I'm happy for him, atleast he found what he really wants..Haayyyy...sakit..

It's never too late...

Lately, i have all these crazy things going on in my mind. Like what coud have been, and what if's questions..A lot fo things may have been bad, but it is always not too late, to make it better.
Here are the things that I' m starting to do now and will be doing soon.

IT'S NEVER TOO LATE TO...
.. Lose weight, and be healthy. ( I lost 7 lbs already)
.. To travel and explore places
. .Make friends with unfriendly people. ^^
. .Change my bad habits.
. .Be kind to the mean.
. .stay longer in a company ( one month na ako sa friday, yippee)
. . always stay humble.
. .have a degree in Education( I'm planning to take up early education0
. .have my own boutique^^ lord willing
. .take a voice lesson hehe
. . be a guitarist
. .design clothes
..bring back my curves
..to have whiter skin
..smaller slimmer arms
..to become succesful
..to have my own car
..forget all the bad things that happened to me in the past
..forgive
..accept
..move on
..bring back my SMILE..I miss it!
.. Be happy

1:51 AM

San ka nakakita ng tao nagexercise ng madaling araw??hehe..ako yun. I ate Hamburger this afternoon, and I felt so heavy afterwards, parang di na ako sanay kumain ng fastfood(which i think is good) Since I exercised, I can't sleep yet..So I tried this dress i bought from ukay..it's mejo maikli hehe..pangimik lng^^

Loving NY styles..from the Sartorialist

Wanted: Long gold necklace

I've been looking for this like decades, unfortunately, I haven't found one. since i'm not into online shopping anymore, and i don't want to take risks in buying online .So I'm so trying hard to look for this one..yay..so hard!!=(

I really love it!!!

For you

The closer I get to you

The closer I get to you
The more you make me see
By giving me all you've got
Your love has captured me

Over and over again
I tried to tell myself
that weCould never be more than friends
And all the while inside
I knew it was real
The way you make me feel

Lying here next to you
Time just seems to fly
Needing you more and more
Let's give love a try

Ooooh-ooh-ooh, whoa-oooooh
Sweeter and sweeter love grows
And Heaven's there for those
Who fooled the tricks of time
With the hearts of love they find
True love in a special way

The closer I get to you
The more you make me see
By giving me all you've got
Your love has captured me

Over and over again
I tried to tell myself that we
Could never be more than friends
And all the while inside
I knew it was real
The way you make me feel

The closer I get to you
The more you make me see
By giving you all you've got
Your love has captured me

The closer I get to you
The feeling comes over me
Me tooPulling closer sweet as the gravity

So into it..

I'm so into high waisted skirts lately, since, my waist is the smallest part of my body..I feel "sexaii" wearing them hehe..

" Why I broke up with you"

"WhyI broke up with you"
Hey,
When we met, you were the most confident girl-you always had
something smart or funny and sarcastic to say. You pushed my
button in a good way. I loved being with you,so I asked you
out. And At first, dating you was amazing- I felt like I'd met my
match.But after about a month,it all started to change.
You didn't speak up
The first thing I noticed was how you stopped making your
own decisions-everything was left up to me,which was weird.
It was like you had lost your personality overnight.
Seriously, everytime I asked you what restaurant we should
eat at or what movie you wanted to see, you'd shrug your
shoulders and say that you didn't care.Then, when I'd go
ahead and make the decision for the both of us,you'd start
sulking,as if it wasn't what you had wanted. Constantly having
to deal with your childish pouting really got on my nerves because
there wasn't anything I can do about i. there was no way for me
to know what you were thinking unless you had to told me
-I'm not a mind reader. If you had just been more straightforward
and said what would have made you happy,I would have done
it for you-but you never gave me that chance.
You didn't trust me
The next thing I knew, I started getting tons of phone calls
from you-like, eight or nine a day. You didn't have anything
to talk about, so it felt like you were just checking up on me.
I remember one day when I was at my job,you called a few times
I didn't pick up because i had work to do, but that night
you flipped out and demanded to know what had been going on
that was more important than our relationship. If that wasn't
crazy enough, just a few days later after you you hinted that
I might be hooking up with some female friends. Anyone who
knows me knows I've never thought about doing anything with them
besides being their friend-so that was ridiculous.I cared about
you and trusted you,but you didn't trust me,and that hurt. I was always
faithful because I liked you and respected you, but you
never seemed to respect my right to have a life outside of us.
I need a girl who will trust me as much as I trust her.
Otherwise, there's nothing to build a relationship on.
You overanalyzed
I'm only human, so sometimes when I say things, they come out
wrong. But whenever I said something that would upset you,
you'd never tlak to me about it-you'd stew over it for days
until you got so upset about what I "meant"that you'd explode
in a full-blown tantrum. It got to a point where you were analyzing
everything I did or said. I can remember time where I didn't even say
anything to you, and you'd decide I was angry or trying to hurt you,
And Because you thought about it for so long before metioning
it to me, it was impossible to make you believe anything else. If
you'd asked me what I meant at the time or told me that you were upset,
I would have been able to explain-or apologize if I needed to.
But you were constantly picking me apart-and pretty soon it just wasn't fun
to be around you anymore.
I wish you luck
I've heard you're with a new guy now-and that things aren't
going well. I guess you didn't learn much from me,but I hope
someday you do. Deep down, I know you're still the fun girl you
were when we first met. One day you'll be a great girldfriend
to some guy if you can learn to relaz a little.It's just too late
for that guy to be me.
Take Care,
ALex

i love it!!!

Closet needs upgrade

One of the house rules in our office is to wear corporate attire every Monday, and business casual from Tuesday to Thursday. After 5 months of being a bum, I don't have formal wears. So, no i really need to upgrade my closet, and besides, I'll be needing it din naman.

Here are the things that I really need right now, not just, for pleasure's sake. But for work.



























====>>>Flaunt what you have..BE Proud!!













=====>>> I know this is not for office hehe..pero if you'll wear the right top and skirt, or dress it will look casual naman^^